First, I have been wanting to do this post for a long time, thoughts have been going through my head for three weeks...I am just going to do the best I can to describe the feelings I have.
The strongest feeling is LOVE....love for my beautiful Sophie...
Love for my wonderful husband Dan who takes care of Sophie on Friday and Saturday nights since he doesnt have work (and Sunday's when Monday is a Holiday:)....
Love for my heavenly who knows me and blesses me in ways that I really could never imagine.
Let me just leave off from my last post. We left Early Saturday April 30th after only four days of knowing we were going to adopt her.
We got off the plane and went to the people's house that we would be staying with for the next two weeks. They were our attorney (husband) and social worker (wife).
It was a beautiful home and they were very kind people. They specialize in adoption and they feel like they are saving these babies who need homes. We got all unpacked and then left to go meet our birth mom. She is AMAZING! She has lived a completely different life than us. It is a hard and sometimes scary life. She decided that adoption was the best choice for her baby. Around the same time we became official to adopt she found she was pregnant. Remember when we were trying decide which private agency to go through? Well I am sure glad we chose the one we did! On Tuesday, April, 26th She walked into a gas station and saw a sign that our agency had posted about adoption. She said that God told her to call them...a couple hours latter we got a call from them!
The next few days were kind of stressful...I am not going to go into detail about these days...Except to say that Wednesday was a beautiful day with my grandma, aunt, cousin and her beautiful baby.
Friday morning at 1:00 am we get a text from our birth mom saying she is in labor! We were so excited! We got everything ready and drove over to the hospital.
Our birth mom asked us to be in the delivery room with her which is pretty much the most amazing thing I have experienced! I was able to see the whole process and even cut the umbilical cord! I was in complete Awe that this beautiful baby came straight from her Heavenly Father to us.
Before this whole adoption...I used to feel sad that I would not get to feel a baby grow inside me...that I would not get to experience what labor felt like*..that I would not get to look at my child and say "oh, look she has my eyes." All those feelings went right out the window as soon as I saw her. Heavenly Father blessed me more than I deserve. As soon as I saw Sophie, I knew I was meant to be her mother, I could also feel that she knew I was her mother. Being a mother has brought me so much joy! I feel like I am fulfilling my Divine purpose here on Earth.
A week later, I was able to drive back to Willard with my mom and brother and sister.
Many thanks to my friend Audrey and her husband for letting us stay the night at their house!
We are home, happy and healthy! Sophie is the most beautiful girl! We grow more in love with her each day.
Love you guys!
*Now I know for sure that I do not need or want to EVER go into labor...I do not handle pain very well and I look up to every woman who has to go through it:) You guys are pretty much amazing!