I have been trying my best to do the #lighttheworld service projects that the LDS church has challenged us to do for the month of December.
Today we are supposed to teach someone about Christ. Yesterday, I had the opportunity to speak about Jesus in Sacrament and I wanted to share a portion of my talk here on this blog.
A few years ago, before we adopted Sophie, Dan and I were supposed to be living the "dream."
I had a great job teaching first grade with my best friend, Dan had a brand new kidney and was finally healthy! We had a beautiful home that I loved so so much! We were both done with school so we had so much free time! We enjoyed lots of dates and I enjoyed lots of girl's nights with friends. I should have been so happy, but instead I was walking around in an almost constant state of sadness. Infertility treatments were not going well for us and all I could think about was having a baby. Every time another friend announced a pregnancy, my soul was crushed! I wish I could say that I am exaggerating here, but I am not.
One night, I grudgingly went to relief Society and this Mormon Message on my plate.
A light bulb went off! I could feel that a change was coming.
Right when I got home, I went straight upstairs to pray. I realized that I had been saying all the wrong prayers!
I had been praying for a Miracle, a baby! What I was failing to realize is the greatest Miracle Baby of all had already been born. My Savior, Jesus Christ. I was 25 years old and that was the first night that I knew the full potential of the Atonement. I imagined the Light of Christ filling up all the dark places in my heart with happiness and joy!
Do I still experience sadness??? Yes! I do! There is so much sadness in this world, but I do not allow myself to wallow in it! Instead, I allow Christ into my heart so I can be happy!
Please, if you are feeling sad, let the Light of Christ into your heart this Christmas season!